Happy New Year 2012

Hey guys, happy new year! I had a awesome countdown party yesterday. Enjoy myself there with a bunch of friends. We went to Cherating Steak House. The pizza is fabulous! I ate three pieces of it. Then, around 11.45p.m. We speed to chee hong's house for countdown. The boys driving's skill are certainly great. Woo! They not even break when turn. And of course we reach chee hong's house on the time. Then, his dad set up the firework. It's so beautiful. We are shouting non stop there.

After that, we went into the house and have some "adult" 's activity. Haha. We drink vodka. Woo! It's awesomeee and it smells like orange juice. I drink a little bit not even half of a cup but my face is all red and I started to feel hot. I am not drunk. Haha. But, I dunno why I posted a random status. =x We went back around 1 something but before went back, we help Tingwei to push his car cause the tyre of his car gone into the drain. This is the first job we do in 2012. Funny!

This morning, I went to Stadium Darul Makmur with family to send my bro. We took lots of pictures there. Gonna miss you so much Stanlee Mok! <3

Happy New Year's Eve

Today is new year's eve and tomorrow is a brand new year, 2012! Just finish shopping with mom and bro. I bought a dress at cuppi. This is so unbelievable. I can't believe I will bought a dress. It's a dress! Okay, enough for that. Let's talk about the activity tonight. We are going to en's house at 8 p.m then around 10 p.m, we are joining chee hong they all at Cherating Steak House. Dunno why, I don't feel excited. It's already 7 p.m and I haven take bath yet. So smelly. It's raining heavily outside there. Why I sound so emo here. Yeah, maybe because my little bro is going to leave tomorrow thats why i miss him, he is going for national service at Marang, Terengganu for three month. I'll miss you so much my little bro.

New year's coming, I should forget bout the past and move on. I hope everything will be alright. I hope my dream will come true. Actually things will be much more simpler if you dont think too much. Birdie, remember that.

Lastly. Happy New Year =)

I'm 20 next year, can I have some freedom and do the things i wanna do?

我吃软不吃硬

middle of the night part 2

Again, it's middle of the night. It's 12.43 a.m now. I feel a bit tired but still don't want to go on bed. Recently, I sleep really late and woke up very late either. I went out with tty today. And yp join us also. Since it's his birthday today so we decided to go secret recipe to get some cake. I ate the green tea cake. It's not bad. But I prefer the one I ate during rabbit's birthday. We bought tty two glass. It's not a normal glass, it's a glass that have some artistic drawing on it. Most important, it has the word " best friend forever ". Yeah, we do had a wonderful time today. We chat alot. He is still the same. That kind of face with the lion type hair. Really funny. Last but not least, wish you have a great birthday. Hope you like the present. Happy birthday once again. =)

Something in my mind again. I'm not in mood again after I reached home. But, everything is fine after I skype with them. Although the problem is not yet settle, but at least, they make me happy, they make me smile. Thanks. =) <3

someday, I'll make it clear

middle of the night

Middle of the night, now it's exactly 12 p.m and it's christmas eve. I can't sleep. That's why I'm blogging here. Something trouble my mind lately. He text me again. He said sorry for everything. I do not know how to respond and I didn't reply. What's my mind thinking about? I don't know and I don't understand either. We went for the class party last monday and I din't even look at him or talk to him, I think this is the reason why he texted me all that. But, seriously I din't angry. I just don't know how to start everything after the quarrel last time. Can you please don't say sorry. You din't did anything wrong. Actually we still can be friend. Normal friend like last time.

The next things that trouble me is about the course I should take next time. I did talk with my parent. Both of them want me to study in local university. I know well, with that kind of bad result, I won't get a good course in uni. Medicine? It's impossible. I know my own standard. I did badly in the exam. Although I study hard, it seems do not pay off. Actually I wanted to tell my parent that I really wish to become a doctor like Doctor Hew. But I do not dare to, cause they sure say, I don't have that much of money. I am very sad when I heard they say like that but what to do. It's really expensive. I don't blame them. I can only blame myself for not hardworking enough, for do not get good result in exam. I really wish that my dream will come true someday. This is my christmas wish, new year's wish and birthday wish. I'm praying. Hoping that it'll come true. I promise, if it really come true, I'll study really hard. I wont disappoint my parents. But, will I come true? No one knows.

i fell lonely when night comes

smile? i can't

how good if you are there with me

problem

sometimes, i really feel sad =(

the future

I am thinking bout the courses that I should take in university recently. Medicine? But as I know, all students that wish to take medicine must have a very very excellent result. At least 3.00 CGPA or even better which is 4.00. Me? i dunno whether I can get 2.00 or not. I really did badly in my STPM especially in my maths paper. And I am worried now. I scared I cant get into university. I scared I cant get a good course. I scared I will disappoint my parents. How good if I am born in a rich family. Then i can get to study the courses I want. To study medicine in private uni, it needs about at least 250 K and it is equivalent to a double story house. =( I think my parents cant affort this much of the tuition fee. It is too expensive and I am not dare to discuss this thing with them. How good if I got a good result. How good if I be more hardworking last time. It's too late to regret. I heard from Jason, he said 100 students that study medicine in UM, only 4 are STPM study and half of it is matriculation student. See, this is Malaysia. I bet 80% in it will be Malay student. this is just dammit unfair. We study so hard, but all the good courses in uni all offered to matriculation student. I just cant accept it. But what to do. This is a fact.


To become a doctor, you must have the kind of strength. Willing to sacrifice and help others. Must have good thinking skill and be confident to yourself. Me? I have that kind of strength to help others, willing to sacrifice and willing to take up challenge. But do I really suit this job? I don't know. According to my cousin that study medicine in UK, she say it is really not easy to become a doctor. You must think twice and make sure you don't regret after you have made your choice.

梦想跟现实是两回事
现实跟能力也是两回事

10 December 2011

我不应该问你, 因为换来的, 只是无动于衷的对待