Happy New Year 2012

Hey guys, happy new year! I had a awesome countdown party yesterday. Enjoy myself there with a bunch of friends. We went to Cherating Steak House. The pizza is fabulous! I ate three pieces of it. Then, around 11.45p.m. We speed to chee hong's house for countdown. The boys driving's skill are certainly great. Woo! They not even break when turn. And of course we reach chee hong's house on the time. Then, his dad set up the firework. It's so beautiful. We are shouting non stop there.

After that, we went into the house and have some "adult" 's activity. Haha. We drink vodka. Woo! It's awesomeee and it smells like orange juice. I drink a little bit not even half of a cup but my face is all red and I started to feel hot. I am not drunk. Haha. But, I dunno why I posted a random status. =x We went back around 1 something but before went back, we help Tingwei to push his car cause the tyre of his car gone into the drain. This is the first job we do in 2012. Funny!

This morning, I went to Stadium Darul Makmur with family to send my bro. We took lots of pictures there. Gonna miss you so much Stanlee Mok! <3

Happy New Year's Eve

Today is new year's eve and tomorrow is a brand new year, 2012! Just finish shopping with mom and bro. I bought a dress at cuppi. This is so unbelievable. I can't believe I will bought a dress. It's a dress! Okay, enough for that. Let's talk about the activity tonight. We are going to en's house at 8 p.m then around 10 p.m, we are joining chee hong they all at Cherating Steak House. Dunno why, I don't feel excited. It's already 7 p.m and I haven take bath yet. So smelly. It's raining heavily outside there. Why I sound so emo here. Yeah, maybe because my little bro is going to leave tomorrow thats why i miss him, he is going for national service at Marang, Terengganu for three month. I'll miss you so much my little bro.

New year's coming, I should forget bout the past and move on. I hope everything will be alright. I hope my dream will come true. Actually things will be much more simpler if you dont think too much. Birdie, remember that.

Lastly. Happy New Year =)

I'm 20 next year, can I have some freedom and do the things i wanna do?

我吃软不吃硬

middle of the night part 2

Again, it's middle of the night. It's 12.43 a.m now. I feel a bit tired but still don't want to go on bed. Recently, I sleep really late and woke up very late either. I went out with tty today. And yp join us also. Since it's his birthday today so we decided to go secret recipe to get some cake. I ate the green tea cake. It's not bad. But I prefer the one I ate during rabbit's birthday. We bought tty two glass. It's not a normal glass, it's a glass that have some artistic drawing on it. Most important, it has the word " best friend forever ". Yeah, we do had a wonderful time today. We chat alot. He is still the same. That kind of face with the lion type hair. Really funny. Last but not least, wish you have a great birthday. Hope you like the present. Happy birthday once again. =)

Something in my mind again. I'm not in mood again after I reached home. But, everything is fine after I skype with them. Although the problem is not yet settle, but at least, they make me happy, they make me smile. Thanks. =) <3

someday, I'll make it clear

middle of the night

Middle of the night, now it's exactly 12 p.m and it's christmas eve. I can't sleep. That's why I'm blogging here. Something trouble my mind lately. He text me again. He said sorry for everything. I do not know how to respond and I didn't reply. What's my mind thinking about? I don't know and I don't understand either. We went for the class party last monday and I din't even look at him or talk to him, I think this is the reason why he texted me all that. But, seriously I din't angry. I just don't know how to start everything after the quarrel last time. Can you please don't say sorry. You din't did anything wrong. Actually we still can be friend. Normal friend like last time.

The next things that trouble me is about the course I should take next time. I did talk with my parent. Both of them want me to study in local university. I know well, with that kind of bad result, I won't get a good course in uni. Medicine? It's impossible. I know my own standard. I did badly in the exam. Although I study hard, it seems do not pay off. Actually I wanted to tell my parent that I really wish to become a doctor like Doctor Hew. But I do not dare to, cause they sure say, I don't have that much of money. I am very sad when I heard they say like that but what to do. It's really expensive. I don't blame them. I can only blame myself for not hardworking enough, for do not get good result in exam. I really wish that my dream will come true someday. This is my christmas wish, new year's wish and birthday wish. I'm praying. Hoping that it'll come true. I promise, if it really come true, I'll study really hard. I wont disappoint my parents. But, will I come true? No one knows.

i fell lonely when night comes

smile? i can't

how good if you are there with me

problem

sometimes, i really feel sad =(

the future

I am thinking bout the courses that I should take in university recently. Medicine? But as I know, all students that wish to take medicine must have a very very excellent result. At least 3.00 CGPA or even better which is 4.00. Me? i dunno whether I can get 2.00 or not. I really did badly in my STPM especially in my maths paper. And I am worried now. I scared I cant get into university. I scared I cant get a good course. I scared I will disappoint my parents. How good if I am born in a rich family. Then i can get to study the courses I want. To study medicine in private uni, it needs about at least 250 K and it is equivalent to a double story house. =( I think my parents cant affort this much of the tuition fee. It is too expensive and I am not dare to discuss this thing with them. How good if I got a good result. How good if I be more hardworking last time. It's too late to regret. I heard from Jason, he said 100 students that study medicine in UM, only 4 are STPM study and half of it is matriculation student. See, this is Malaysia. I bet 80% in it will be Malay student. this is just dammit unfair. We study so hard, but all the good courses in uni all offered to matriculation student. I just cant accept it. But what to do. This is a fact.


To become a doctor, you must have the kind of strength. Willing to sacrifice and help others. Must have good thinking skill and be confident to yourself. Me? I have that kind of strength to help others, willing to sacrifice and willing to take up challenge. But do I really suit this job? I don't know. According to my cousin that study medicine in UK, she say it is really not easy to become a doctor. You must think twice and make sure you don't regret after you have made your choice.

梦想跟现实是两回事
现实跟能力也是两回事

10 December 2011

我不应该问你, 因为换来的, 只是无动于衷的对待

我的世界 或许已容不下你了

我真的很不想看到你
一次又一次的
你让我对你很反感
你说话的方式其实跟她真的没什么两样
我不跟你说话 或许我已经累了 没什么话好说
我不跟你说话 或许我想一个人静静 不想让任何人打乱我的思绪

该说的我都已经说了 就让他到此结束吧

" I wont disturb you anymore, maybe this is the best way.. "

life

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕 別跟著我 銘心 刻骨

the night

it's time to forget and let go

傻瓜

要不是突然看到你眼睛會说话　也許不會對你装傻
所以我決定收下　你的花　相信你　說的每句話
是你讓我的心跳每秒鐘快幾下　突然想吻你的面頰
所以我閉上雙眼　幻想著　期待那些浪漫佳話　花前月下
你也在想我嗎
你和我一樣嗎
如果愛真的來臨
我們會牽手迎接嗎

hmm..

the sky turns blue

i can clearly know what is the direction and thoughts I'm having now. you are not in the world of mine i purpose. there're too many things happened between us that make me upset. and there should be a fullstop now and it's time we concentrate on what we supposed to do. prepared for the coming STPM. work hard.

touched

the sky is grey

I really wish to have some chocolate or sweets to make me happy
anyone have it?
my mind is really crowded with alot of stuff
i need some fresh air

where's the happy birdie?

15-10-2011

bu ke yi zhe yang de

=(

whats on my mind?

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴你　告訴你我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著你
緊緊抱著你

what are you thinking stupid birdie
i miss you? =(

29.9.2011 =)

last thursday, 29.9.2011 is rabbit's birthday.
we celebrated at bayleaf steak house
agung made a green tea cake for her
it is really delicious =D
we make lots of surprises for her too
the bag, watch, BIG BIG facebook card, my nike bottle =p, chocolate and so much more!
all of us enjoy the day very much. =)
every present she got have a great meaning behind it.
this is what we called TRUE FRIENDSHIP.
it is not bout money and expensive stuff
it is all bout love and care

i love you guys
it is not worth to cry bout it.
i have you guys, it is more than enough =)
<3

results

results for the trial is out
i got 2.83 for my overall pointer
are this consider good?
but i think i can do much more better
i am quite down these days
firstly is because of my maths and the second one is my biology
it is so hurted when you saw the essay that you know how to do which you only get 3 marks out of 15
i got 61 for my bio paper
this is not what i expected

there is no time for me to think and sad anymore
i left 50++ days to STPM
i don't want myself to regret because i din study or well prepared
i must do my best
hope to get 3.5 and above in STPM
i will try hard

wo men yi qi jia you

trial

trial is going to end
results are going to come out
for the trial this time, i am quite satisfied except my maths
yesterday is the first time i cried after i took my maths paper 1
i cry badly
but i promised to myself
i wont let this thing happen anymore
next is my chemistry
i got a B+
this is a great improvement
i am so happy when teacher praised me that i improve a lot
i will work harder
i want an A in STPM for my chemistry
i believe i can de
i just finish my biology paper 2 today
i did my best with no regrets although i did some careless mistake
but anyway
i hope i will get i good result
i aim for 3.00 for this trial
i can? i hope so

i got something to do
i love you

26-8-2011

i know =)

18-8-2011

you don't always have to pretend to be strong
there's no need to prove all the time that everything is going well
it's good to cry out loud because only then you will be able to smile again

it's over

17-8-2011

i changed my password

not again

it's not worth for me to sad bout you anymore.

12-8-2011

over and over

i tried to rebuild our friendship bond

over and over

you say you are okay but you're not

over and over

i force myself not to think bout it anymore

over and over

you hurted me

over and over

i cried



and i don't know why..

inconsolable

Keeping it inside is kiling me
Cause all I ever want it comes right down to you
I wish that I could find the words to say

i failed

the changes 4-8-2011

Today, he came infornt of me and talk to me. He pointed to my watch saying " 2 months ". [4-6-2011--4-8-2011]

Yea. Lots of things happened during these 2 months. Learning how to make my life more joyful and happy aren't a simple task. It requires a great changes in our ownselves. Sometimes, if the changes you did can make yourself and people around you to be more happy. It is absolutely great.
Recently, i emo cause something that can't make through my mind. Something unsolved bothering me. Today, although it's still unsolved, but since it already happened, I will let it be. Stop thinking is the only thing i can do. We should treasure the time we have wisely so that we won't regret in the future.
Sorry for not approaching to you recently. I think it is bout a week we didn't take. Actually I feel shock when you approached to me today. We start taking like before. I know most of your status is bout me and i know things that happened means happened and we can't do anything anymore. But i will still feel guilty over the things I had done on you. I hope the another part of your heart can be sew back. I treasure our friendship very much. I know you too.
Guys, the words you all said will always in my mind.
Sorry for everything!


- Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forgive the one who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. Don't look back -

cheer up birdie

1 month 2 weeks

"one day you say you love me then you say we should be friend and i was okay with that.."

it's all my fault and i apologize
my damn feeling and silly thought
i ruined everything
i am so sorry



can i make everything back to normal?

People that I treasure the most !

7-7-2011

rabbit

mama

agung

miar

cas

pink



nene

chu chu

love



super love



triple love



crazy love



THE BIG ZOO FAMILY!

这种朋友， 去那里找 ;)

6-7-2011

please give me sometime to think
maybe i need to be alone for a while
idkw. I'm afraid.
i will come to you when I'm ready
sorry

bird, don't emo le =/

the final decision

Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life.

no more

相通了

其实 换个角度去想
全部事情都可以很好的
心情不好的时候 伤心的时候
自己一个人静静 听听歌
找知己诉诉苦
睡个觉起来
又是新的一天了
相通了就没事了
小鸟会很好的
不会再钻牛角尖

我是蘑菇
像它一样坚强

1-7-2011

my mind is complicated
='(
i want my mushroom
='(

argh

you =(

disappointment? broken hearted? heart bleeding?
i experienced all of these too
stop that
" everyone is going to hurt you, you just need to find the ones worth suffering for " ?
i am going blame myself emo, sad and cry when i saw this
stressed out with all these
i am going to mad soon
thats why i'm keeping away from you today
i just need some time alone

you said you wont hurt me anymore
but
...

29-6-2011

confused..

homeworks
result
problems
teachers
feelings

nothing goes well
i just want the happy birdie back
but now
i just don't feel like want to smile
fuck my life

the memory

I have made a new folder tittle " People that I treasure the most "
This file is filled with all the pictures and memories of us
It make me moody when i review back all the pictures just now. idkw
i heart everyone of you

i smile?

24-6-2011

容忍是很辛苦的 我也有我的极限
你们就不能体量我吗?
我知道我也有错
但是
你们就不能留回一点尊严给我吗?
不要挑战我

20-6-2011

Had a talk today
the feeling is not the same anymore
you know why I'm sad
you just keep ignore it
although i miss the old good times
but
i just can't do anything
decision made
so that's it
i don't have the right to say the word regret
the only thing i can do to forget is
keep myself busy with homework and study
let the time settle everything

so this is me swallowing my pride standing infront of you, saying I'm sorry for that night.
".......sorry no cure"

happy post =)

okay. i need some happy cell with the help of some happy enzyme to stimulate me. i already emo for don't know how many days thinking bout the pass, the problem and the things happened. being requested to post something happy. and yea, there is something really make me happy. hanging out with two best friend at ecm yesterday. the rabbit and the moo. oh ya, and agung too! =D although it's super tiring but it's fun! next week is a week that full with anticipation and excitement. monday is miar birthday! thursday is agung birthday! friday is result day! o.O a lot of things come together. WOO. cant waiting for it. i will try no to emo =x haha.

friends forever ;)
i was smiling and telling myself that everything will be fine

17-6-2011

I love how we use to talk last time. laugh together. study together. crap together and even walk together. i miss your voice. your sound. but the joyful and happiness on you doesn't exist anymore. I miss the good times. now, we're just like stranger. i saw the notes. the FULLSTOP. you're hurting me. that's the end of our memory? i don't want. i don't want all these things to happen. i hope there is something i can do for you. I want our friendship to last forever. it's my fault i know. sorry sorry and sorry. there's nothing else i can say other than sorry. i thought you want me to be happy? my heart is bleeding now. ARGH! nothing goes right in my life recently. everything is in a mess now. i am trying to untie and solve all my problems but it seems getting more worst. i don't know what to do. i am tired. fed up. just hoping there's way to turn back everything but it seems no.

why?
why the ending is like this?
will everything change if i say yes from the beginning?

16-6-2011

i had a nightmare yesterday
it's really scary

just imagine a person that are so closed to you suddenly turn up and become very abnormal and keep chasing and hunting for you. i am scared. i scared it happen again tonight. i want somebody there with me. tell me that all these things are unreal. or maybe this dream is some kind of message from god? idk. i just feel unsafe to be alone. maybe the things that bothering me all these while is turning into my dream. i dun wan it to happen in the real life. too many things happened today. i just cant accept it. sorry chu chu for the ignorance this morning. maybe i am still hanging around and thinking about the scary dream. luckily my lovely dad is inside my dream with me, if not i dunno what will happen to me. i just dunno what to do. i straight away think of you after i wake up. you appeared in my mind but i hope this is not the truth. i know everything and i rather i dunno it. it's really hurt when i saw it. i scared all these things will affect my study. so i choose to ignore. i need a long time to rest my mind and cool down myself. this is an unusual sign for me because this is the first time i had nightmare. i should talk bout it or just keep quiet? tell me what to do cause i am lost. idk. idc.

the tear just dropped silently when i think bout you.
actually i am still care bout you.
just that you dont know.

the words kinda hurted

15-6-2011

the minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you held on so long

bird you can de

13-6-2011

actually the feeling now is really bad
you can see the friends around you are getting band 4 and happily enjoying there
but me?
still the same
band 3 and this is even terrible dropped 3 marks to 170
you keep asking me who are getting band 5
going to retake anot?
actually i feel sad you know?
it is difficult to tell out the feeling
you work so hard toward something but you din get the result you want
the big hug from the rabbit today really make me want to cry
i felt warm
thanks for the words
love you so much
as you said
it's already a fact
you already got the result
you cant change anything
so better focus on STPM

for the exam this time
i am quite satisfied
i got all pass
my chemistry
i used to fail everytime in the exam
but this time
i got 57
although it is still a B-
but i believe i can do it!
i want an A for STPM!
special thanks to the rabbit, pn phang, sir ryan, tingwei and ish for teaching me all the time when i dun understand <3
next is my maths
i got 51
actually it's quite terrible
because this time
the paper are quite easy compared to those exams last time
i need more hard work and effort on it
then is my biology
this time
my marks is sucks
i got 45 only
luckily passed
i admit i study too much chemistry and i din focus on bio
i hope i will do better next time
i haven got back my PA paper but i think i will pass the paper
cause i got 28 for pa3 an 26 for pa2
really hope so


life is really not easy
i have to survive for my future
sometimes
i really feel tired with all of the things that happened around me
sometimes
i choose to ignore everything and choose to be blind
i dunno what else can i do
the problems are still in my mind unsolved

something has come to an end and there's no way turning back, i will choose to ignore if things happen again because once repulsion force exist, there's no way two magnet can still together anymore-

放下一切 一心一意 用功求学 步向成功

10-6-2011

monday
lots of things gonna happen on monday
i haven prepare for anything yet
the midterm result
the muet result
and
the...

i am okay?
i dont' know
hoping somebody will be there with me

说了再见才发现再也见不到

8-6-2011

DAY 5

the feeling still there
dont love too much because that too much can hurt you so much =(
sorry

bird emo

7-6-2011

what to do next?
when does all these things gonna be over?
thank you for guiding me all the way along
i know i have to make my own decision
it's quite hard
in my mind now, study is the most important thing.
my dream
my ambition
i dun want anything disturb me from achieving it

i dunno
confused again
i need time dear

monday..
i think everything will be done and settled on monday
i hope you got it

6-6-2011

あなたは価値が私のために、すべてがですか？私は自分の愚かな感情の間に混乱しています。私は、今のところ、研究が最も重要です。私は私の時間が必要だと思います。私は本当にごめんなさい

4-6-2011

私はちょうどあなたが私のためにすべてをしたに気づいた。すべてが速すぎてきた。夜。私は知らない私は感情のようなものを持っている理由。私が実際にあなたを傷つける怖い。私がいない場合、私は深くお詫び申し上げます。しかし、私は知らないなぜ私はまだカントは過去を忘れてしまう。あなたも私に適しています。私はもう何を言って知らない。すべてに感謝します。<3 はあなたを愛して

2-6-2011

前一分钟的我

在后巷徘徊
不知所措
欲哭无泪
很乱 很烦

这一分钟的我

尝试去想通
试着去解决
学着去长大
原来不容易
还是要面对

再给我一点时间
给我空间去
呼吸

30-5-2011

其实我有点累了
真的累了
不想说话
只想静静一个人

原来勉强地笑是很辛苦的

15-5-2011

really now in mood
alot of things come to me suddenly

i was quiet for the whole morning during maths tuition
i dont want to talk to anyone
i dont want to think
i force myself doing maths there
i just want to be alone

after i gone home
my dad ask me to drop my mom and bro at tanjung restaurant
i not feel like want to go home after that
i drove to somewhere else
without direction and aim
i speed
trying to cool down myself

i just dunno what happened to me
it's tired

NATIONAL COMP ( 31 April & 1 May 2011)

the days that i will never forget
i went for national competition on 31 of April and 1 of May
this is a great trip
it is at my lovely hometown KELANTAN
after so many trainings and practices
is time for us to show off what we had learned
the 2days 1 night competition is really packed
i learned alot
really alot during these few months
i grown up

At kelantan, we 5 of us did everything together
eat play sleep and fight together
we got nothing but the true friendship and experience
i love you!
you make me smile =)

the rabbit team! <3


open ceremony! 1hour standing with rain

*salute

PAHANG TEAM!


i like this! perfect~!!


wooo!

closing ceremony :)

congrats fo!


mcd at kuala terengganu :D

THE MEMORIES THAT WILL LAST FOREVER
i love every moment of it
thanks for everything
TEAM NAC!
1- rabbit leong ( the great leader ever! :D)
2- moo ong
3- foh
4- miar
5- me! the birdie that evolved to pink berret! xD

" SELAMAT PAGI TUAN! KAMI PASUKAN NAC TELAH SIAP SEDIA UNTUK DIUJI! "

glory!

31 april & 1 may 2011

3-5-2011

一瞬间的感动
眼泪不停地流
我真正地体会到
那一句话的含义
当中的回忆和记忆

我真的不知道为什么我哭了
但是
我知道
这是感动的眼泪

what happened? 29-4-2011

did i do anything wrong?
if yes. i apologize
we didnt talk for almost 2 weeks dy although we sit side by side in school everyday
whats happened?
you make me feel so moody
are we still friend?


i got a text from you.
i rather i didnt received it

25-4-2011

actually, i miss you. so much.
i love the moment we are being together
eating talking and laughing
but everything seems so dreamy
i wish to give up
but my heart are still there at somewhere
i wish i can control but i cant
what happened to me?
i just cant control my feeling
i wish to share everything with you
no matter happy or sad
something went wrong

你会等待还是离开?

21-4-2011

Sometimes you have to stop thinking so much and go where your heart takes you

i dunno what to say, i got some weird feeling that is hard to describe. i hope the feeling can last longer. but it usually not. i hope things will under control. =( i will work harder. i hope i can make it.

you are the one who make me happy and light up my day =)

i miss you

the happy day 16-4-2011

i have gone through a lot of things.
personally, i think i have grown up a lot.
more matured and have diverse thinking :)
more understanding and caring as someone said
it is a good change
no more emo every single day
and my life is more joyful and colourful
with you guys around me
giving me support and love <3
i love you

and before i end
i would like to say that
friendship is the most valuable thing in life
by threating everyone with the true and sincere heart
a strong relationship can be build up
and this relationship will not fade

i love you once again

finally MUET exam finished!
and if i got band 4 and if i pass my chemistry this time
you guys shall see what will i do
definately i will........
:)

14-4-2011 =)

your words make me touched
and i will remember it.

exam is near again
and this time there are two exams coming together
MUET and April test
i did essays listening and reading
i practice practice and practice
just hoping that i can get the result i want
a band 4 is really more than enough for me

recently
i am working so hard on my chemistry
trying to love this subject and make a huge changes on my chemistry result
do not make the teachers disappointed again
Pn Phang and Sir Ryan
i will try my best
and
thanks to the rabbit for willing to teach me all the time although she is busy with her work
gan dong
yea you are right
wu ji bi fan
and i will remember this
i need more practice and the most important :
CONFIDENT!

i hope i can do it
birdie jia you =)

9-4-2011

actually i am letting out my feeling
trying to tell
but no one listen to me

dont listen then fine
dont say something hurted me
i take it seriously
you should know me well


有时, 真的需要你的时候
你在那里?

5-4-2011

When things happened, look for that still sacred space within you. Take some time to rest in that space. After a time, when you are ready, come out to face the world again.

SO TRUE.

the feeling is still there and i just let it be
no worry, i am not emo :)

just wanna let out my feeling cause it is disturbing me

2-4-2011

i seldom emo dy
and i think everyone is happy to listen to this
haha

i love my life now
full my love and laughter everyday
most important is
my girls! :)

i think i had grown up
i know it is weird to say like this
but i think i had changed a lot
especially my thinking
this is a good start
starting to understand and the most important love the people around me
<3


i love you

LOVE

p/s : finally i can go back to kelantan :D

<3

STUDY TIME! :)

STATE COMP 2011 ( 19&20 March 2011 )

19 & 20 March 2011
the day that i will never forget

i would like to say sorry
very sorry on the things i had done before this
really sorry to the rabbit
i know and i understand <3
i will remember the things you had said
you wake me up :)
i am touched
after so many tears, emoss and hardwork
finally
we got CHAMPION!

here it is!

thanks guys!
the love and encouragement
will be in my mind and heart forever
love you guys!

这是你无法取代的
我无言了
真的....

17-3-2011

things changed. people changed

but

i am still the same

and

hoping that the day will come

晴天
已经变成
蓝色风暴了
但是
我还是希望
彩虹会出现

10-3-2011

i have taken all of the exam papers dy
i did it badly
the worst is my chemistry
i only got 35 marks
and there is only 3 out of 14 people in our class pass the paper
i am totally disappointed
but
i think pn phang is even more sad than anyone of us
jason heard from pn phang
she said
" i really dunno how to teach you all dy. i dunno what to do anymore "
i feel like want to cry when a teacher say something like that
sorry teacher
i am so sorry
i made you disappointed again
i promise i will try my best in the april test
i wont fail anymore
i promised!

maths
i got 43 marks only
biology
50 marks only
and pengajian am
48 marks

i will work hard in the april test
and i will make sure i will pass all of the subject
i hope i can do it

feel so stressed because of the competition
theory chemistry theory chmistry
irene victor irene victor
i goona mad


hope there's something to cheer me up during this weekend :(

gonna miss you
i love you



想多了是会累的
很希望能回到从前的那个
原点

9-3-2011

心很酸

5-3-2011 J.A.Y

i love JAY.

搁浅

4-3-2011

i am in a good mood today actually
cause everything is settled
and back to normal

you are there
to make me smile
feel happy cause you're there helping me to settle the problems
i will try my best to do the best
for the coming april test
no more fail
so that i can get a xxx =p

suddenly get scolded by you damn seriously
i did something wrong again?
or you're trying to realise your stress on me
i feel sad you know?
why cant you just give me a proper reason instead of saying
leave me alone or let me calm down first?

i am hurted

1-3-2011

what is going on actually?
what am i thinking?
the feeling's disturbing me again.

aww..

25.2.2011

the second day of exam
it is really not that easy as you think
although you study until middle of the night
but you still cant do it well
feels disappointed
the biology..
i did study alot
memorize everything but i still cant do it
maths..
when i see the paper
i feel like wanna cry
and feel like want to sing this song
" waiting for the end to come, wishing i have strength to stay....."

now
i am worry bout the next two paper
chemistry and maths 1

and
i want to say
getting 4.0 is not that easy
and i am not those clever type
must put on more effort if you want to succeed!

still got time
work hard for your dream


<3

17.2.2011

you changed.
we are not as closed like before.
i wanted to apologize for the things i had said to you.
but i think i wont help anymore.
sorry for that.
i hope we're still friend.

刮风这天
我试着握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐
他让我看你不见

hearts.

14-2-2011 :)

i love you more than i could say
happy valentines day! :)

8.2.2011 -- happy birthday cas!

nothing much i can say
just wanna wish you
happy birthday!
all the best and get 4.0 in STPM!
friends forever <3

cheerss!

7.2.2011

" It hurts to love you and not be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love you and never find the courage to let you know how I feel. "

the complicated feeling is still there

and it will make me feel moody suddenly
dont wan to think
dont wan to know

i need time
time help to cure and forget

伤口好了后, 始终会留下疤痕

6 feb 2011

i am supposed to stop thinking i know
but
i just cant control
tears down
i am tired

the day

you know what
i feel sad actually after knowing it
but no choice
this is the fact
just accept it

i dint angry or what
just that i am wondering
why why and why? :(
many question marks appeared on my mind

i wish to talk to you
and luckily you are here with me
thanks

__

is it true?
i hope it is not
lots of question marks
have been thinking bout this for a whole day
i hope it can come to a conclusion :(

hearts you!

lost

sometimes

i feel lost :(
looking at the sky and start to think
tears dropped

need you now

you'll be in my heart always

i feel safe when you're there
your word and your smile
i love you more than i could say


i know you're always THERE

it seems...

everything seems so wrong
i am not good enough
urgh

but
i am glad that you're always here with me

sick :(

i am sick
cough for 3 days non stop
omg i feel like dying
now i can feel my throat is burning
then the stupid sore throat cause me fever
went to see doctor and he gave me lots of medicine
antibiotic panadol and medicine for cough ==
it is alot
and now
i can feel the pain even though when the saliva touched my throat
and i dunno why all this happened
without any reason :(
feel like wanna skip the gotong royong tomorrow
gah..
whatever lah!

p/s :完全无动于衷 :(

pp/s : think twice before you talk! dont make me pissed off!!!!!

after a week

i am totally exhausted after a week of school
lots of homework and projects
yea it is because i do everything at last minute
thats why i am in a mess now lol
sicky feeling
sorethroat somemore :(
maybe is because of the weather
or..
blah whatever lah

next week is a busy week. really!
good luck everyone

p/s : i know it has no link at all xD but seriously i wan a tor!
pp/s : i love you emo tor and cheeky tor! <3

i am still thinking and wondering

hugs!

rainy day

i bathed in the rain everyday and it makes me feel so cold.
sicky feeling :(

thanks.

i am lost

i really lost the direction
my ambition..
my dream..
what should i do?

i know i cant give up
but
i really feel so down
cant somebody guide me?

cried.
but it doesnt help

1-1-2011

跌倒没有人扶
哭了没有人安慰

坐在一旁
听着
王力宏-需要人陪
眼泪就不停地流